TNZKMA 105

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I wonder when Dole’s Ceremony will be?

Apparently, news of the ceremony comes at night. It seems like the news comes suddenly, you reply on the spot, and the next morning you’re inside the ceremony room.

If Dole takes the Ceremony, gets a girl, and bears a child, what will Saine think? If his friend has a child, won’t he think that he wants one, too? He chose me and thus gave up on having a child, but I’m afraid that feelings of regret will appear.

I honestly hope that the guys who are waiting for the Ceremony will quickly get it. I sincerely hope so. 

But, but you know……

 

[What are you thinking?]

 

On the way back from the guild, Saine stopped in his tracks when he noticed that I was late, even though we were supposed to be walking side by side.

He didn’t ask me what was wrong, but what I was thinking, which shows how long our relationship has been. When I hang my head or walk slowly, Saine knows that I’m usually thinking about something worthless.

I hopped along like a sprinter and caught up with Saine. I gently shook his large hand that was extended to me.

 

[I was thinking…… whether you’ll want your own son if Dole has a child.]

 

There’s no hiding or deceiving Saine. His pitch-black eyes will quickly see through it.

 

[Didn’t I tell you that I’ve given up on having a kid?]

[You did but……]

 

Even if he’s given up, it might linger in the corner of his heart.

When I was living over there, I gave up on a lot of things. I gave up on being carried on my dad’s back, on my mom’s meals. I gave up knowing that these were things I couldn’t have, but deep down, I wanted them.

 

[It’s my bad for phrasing it poorly. I do not want children.]

[……]

[You don’t believe me, do you?]

 

Saine leaned down, looked at me and smiled.

 

[I’m selecting an option. Guarding is my specialty, you know?]

[What does that mean?]

[A client is carrying a heavy load, and a powerful monster is in front of us. If I can’t protect both the load and the client, I’ll make them abandon the load. I’ll prioritize their life. Business can come later. Even if I’m asked to pay damages, I’ll choose life.]

 

Still holding my hand, Saine starts walking.

 

[There are monsters on all sides. It’s impossible to get through safely. If so, I’ll aim for monsters that will only break my arm. I’ll have to instantly decide which one will cause the least amount of damage. That’s the most important quality for surviving as a guard.]

 

Saine walked with a heavy pot hanging from his shoulders. I looked up at him, who was walking slowly in sync with me.

 

[Make an instant choice. If you cannot make that choice, you will eventually die. Even if you did choose, if the choice is wrong, the result will be the same. Choose the right path in an instant. If you can do that, you will survive and become a Dauntless.]

 

His pitch black eyes look down at me. Saine’s eyes always have a gentle look when they look at me.

 

[You are the most important person to me. If you are gone, there is no point in having children. And I certainly don’t need any other Reincarnator. As long as I have you, that’s enough.]

 

When I stopped, he also stopped and patted me on the head.

 

[I don’t want kids. I can’t lose you over something like that.]

 

His big hand gently strokes my cheek.

 

[Don’t cry in a place like this.]

[But…]

[Even if you cry on the street, I’d still hold you, you know?]

 

Saine bent down a little and picked me up. He held the pot in his right hand and me in his left hand. I think we’re both heavy, but Sain was smiling with a calm face.

 

[Let’s go home quickly. I want to shove it inside you.]

 

His words made my buttocks clench.

 

[I think that su~per lucky. I think I’m really lucky to have you as my husband.]

[Is that so?]

[Yup. Saine, I love you.]

 

When I looked straight into his pitch-black eyes and smiled, Saine’s footsteps became faster that before.

 

I wonder how many times each day I tell Saine that I love him.

I find myself thinking about this. No matter how many times I say it, it’s never enough, and my feelings just keep overflowing. I think Saine is cooler than the sparkling Olphynn, and I think Saine is stronger than any of the Dauntlesses, even than any Heroes that I’ve never met.

 

As soon as we got home, we connected our bodies without lighting the fireplace or the candles. In a pitch black room, I accepted Saine’s advances from behind.

The drawstring bag around my neck suddenly became lighter, and I felt Kyui jump out. I don’t think it understands anything, but I’m a little worried about showing Kyui this appearance.

When I asked Saine, he said that monsters don’t have a concept of sex, so it seems it really doesn’t understand.

 

I put both hands on the table and endure Saine’s thrusts. As he thrusts upward from behind, my legs nearly come off the ground. There’s a difference in our physiques, but more than that, I can feel Saine’s strength.

After pushing it in as far as it will go, he starts to rub around inside me. Saine’s pointed head gouges into me. Unable to withstand it, I come first.

 

[Ah……]

 

I arched my head back to endure the urge to ejaculate. My toes and fingertips went numb, and I clenched my buttocks. Saine groaned as I gripped him tighter, and he slammed into me.

Our heavy breathing echoed in the dark room.

I have to go buy ingredients for dinner and breakfast at the market in the North-Eastern Section later. That’s what I was thinking with the last bit of calm remaining in my mind, but I was so useless I couldn’t resist the pleasure and clenched the penis I had taken in my lower mouth tightly.

Lately, it seems that I can’t stop after just one round.

 

My whole mind and body is being dyed with Saine’s color. I hope it’s also the same with Saine.

However, regardless of my tightness, the thick Saine slides out. The moment he came out, I clenched as tightly as I could but it didn’t work

 

[We’ll continue after eating our meal.]

 

Saine pats my head and moves away. The hot body nearby is gone, and I shiver in the slightly cool air. The sound of a flint being struck in the darkness echoes through the room, and it becomes softly bright.

The guard season is coming to an end, and monster season is upon us. It’s also the season when the nights get cold. It’s like summer and winter on the other side.

But in this world, there are no clearly defined seasons that you can feel with your body. There is no boiling summer that makes you sweat, or winter that requires you to dress warmly. It’s a little hot, a little cold, that’s the extent of it.

 

But nights are different. During guard season, you don’t need a fireplace at night. But during monster season, a fireplace is a necessity at night.

I don’t have a thermometer so I don’t know how hot it is, but I think the temperature difference between day and night during monster season is about 10 degrees.

 

Saine lit the fireplace and candles. In the now bright room, I took off the shirt that was just wrapped around my neck. I also took off my pants, one leg of which was already taken off. Now naked, I approach Saine. I attached myself to the large, similarly naked body.

 

[Wanna get into the bath?]

 

When I looked up and asked, ‘Yeah’, he nodded.